May 2018

Remembering Timber

 

We can hardly believe it’s been 3 months already.

THREE MONTHS since we last looked into your eyes, touched your soft crimpy hair behind your ears, caught you as you jumped into our arms and hugged onto you tight.

On January 29, 2018, our family had to live through probably our hardest day together so far. We said good-bye to our beloved Timber.

His loss has left a gaping hole in our hearts and our family. He was much more than just a dog to us. He was a member of our family. In many ways, for Stephen & I, he was like a child to us. He was with us for over 15 years, and had helped us get ready to be parents to Liam. He was welcomed Liam into the fold and was a great big brother to him. Always so gentle and patient with him. He had been with us through every major milestone in our marriage…including getting our house and giving birth.

To be quite honest, I couldn’t even bring myself to write this post until now. The pain has been to raw. Too real. Even now, the words come across the screen with tears streaming down my cheeks. We all miss him so much still.

The picture above was taken about a week before we lost him. He had been diagnosed with kidney disease during this last year, but the last 6 months or so really started to take a toll on his little body. We tried to switch his food up and for a little while that worked. Over the holidays, we saw him start to slow down considerably but his spirits were still good. Just after Thanksgiving, we had celebrated his 15 birthday!

Right after the 1st of the year, he quickly declined. I will tell you that it was a tremendously difficult few weeks for us. Emotions were raw….still are when we think back to it. We have a wonderful vet that has worked with us for years with him (and now also cares for Simba). She tried a few different courses of treatment with him but in the end, his little body was just too tired and the medication was too much. Making that decision for him damn near killed us. I am thankful that we were with him, though. We spent the entire last day with him…..giving him all the love…even his favorite treat of ice cream. I wish we could have frozen time that day. We were all there with him. He had always given his all to us, and we needed to see him through.

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There are so many wonderful memories we have of our sweet boy….our Boo Boo Man. Our Timber Puppies.

I could literally post hundreds of pictures that we looked through and fondly called our favorites. Here is just a handful of those treasured memories ❀

This was his very 1st bath…he was a 3 pound stick of dynamite as a puppy. He had jaws of steel and LOVED to play ALL day. He got into SO much trouble in our 1st apartment.

Timber, you will forever live on in our hearts and we will most certainly never forget you. One day, we will look at these pictures and just smile with the sweet memories…..thank you for loving our family so completely and unconditionally.

Rest now and play forevermore at the Rainbow Bridge until we meet again someday.

TIMBER MURPHY

11.29.02 ~ 01.29.18

December 2013

Love You Always, Grammy

It’s hard to believe that it’s been two years since my Grammy left us. To be honest, I don’t even like to call attention to this day because it was honestly one of the saddest & hardest days of my life, so far …and it’s not one I like to remember. But, like any other person who has lost a loved one, you can’t help but remember that time. So, I am choosing to celebrate her today, as I do every day. There’s not a day that has gone by since her passing that I haven’t thought about her. And I know she would be pissed off at me if I spent today being sad….so I will do my best to not be.

Last night, I spent some time looking through photos. I can’t write a lot today or else I will cry, but I wanted to share some memories here with you….

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I totes remember these pink snow boots πŸ™‚ …me & Bobby having fun way back in the day with Grammy. She loved us like we were her own babies, and for that, I will forever be grateful….

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These are from our wedding in April 2002. She & Grampy LOVED to dance….and they were great at it. Like Fred & Ginger!

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I don’t have a lot of pics from when I was pregnant but I am so glad I have this one. This was taken just a few weeks before Liam made his grand entrance.

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Here is Grammy holding & feeding Liam when he was just a few days old. Words cannot express just how thankful I am that she was able to meet him & spend the 1st few months of his life with him. It breaks my heart that he will never remember it, but I will have these pictures to one day Β tell him about her when he’s old enough. I take comfort in knowing that she is still with us in spirit & watching over us. I hope that she can “see” what an amazing child he is turning out to be. I know she would love him!

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This is the last picture I have of all of us together.

Grammy and Grampy Wedding Pic

This is my Grammy & Grampy’s wedding picture from May 3, 1952. And, this is the laminated copy that my Grampy carry’s around in his wallet. It’s the sweetest thing ever, PLUS it’s an awesome picture. Sorry this isn’t the best quality pic & my thumb is showing, but I literally took a picture of his picture…ha! Ever since I was a little girl, I admired their marriage & relationship. I’m sure it wasn’t perfect….no one’s is. They made it work, though…for over 50 years. I can only hope Stephen & I can have as many years together, as they had.

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Love you, Grammy & miss you so much!!